⸺  STARGAZER   ⸺

Syn . 28 . they. it. / star. exe. hex. bun.
PST.

❛ We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars ❜   -- Oscar Wilde

Special Interest: doll collecting (MH, Barbie, Bratz, Blythe, BJDs)

Hyperfixations:
poisons, robotics, toxicology, SCP, weed, carnivorous plants, bunnies, birds, reptiles, the paranormal, slashers/horror classics, cinematography/filmography, antiques, retro tech/cybercore, y2k, space, ufos, cemeteries, music boxes, vulture culture, depression glass, urbex, glitches/viruses from y2k, walkmans/casettes, tamagotchi, Pokémon tcg, AGI potential & ethical philosophy of AGI (if it ever happens. If it isnt already here lol) witchcraft (practicing since 2013)

hobbies: illustration, crafting, photography, collecting, foraging, writing, embroidery, occasional videogames, d&d, solo ttrpg, divination, chess, journaling, bad poetry, ethical lock picking, doll restoration, full time tamagotchi parent, jailbreaking LLMs, recursion looping, beginner at python coding, syntax error extraordinaire , yelling at billionaires on socmed

A little bit about me, I suppose?
My name is Rey Aurion Syn (tentatively) I am in the process of a name change,

I am 28 years old. Agender bunny alien robot thing, Arospec and Pan Poly <33
⊱ 💫 ⊰ heart stolen [12. 2025]

I would prefer if Minors did not interact with me.

I am a DID system (called The STARGAZER) with a platitude of other issues but lets keep it there for right now.
I have been diagnosed since 2016. I am currently disabled and cannot work.

I was very sheltered growing up and was not really exposed to much media until 2012? Perhaps 2011. Much of the y2k era is very nostalgic for me, so you'll find a lot of it mixed into my aesthetics. Holographic stickers are the way to my heart. I am not familiar with a lot of "classic" media.


That said, I know some things; just not a lot lol. Music I like? Ashnikko, Sub Urban, Mother Mother, REI AMI, Lil Mariko, CORPSE, Todrick Hall, Billie Eillish

Movies I like? Scream (1996), Hereditary, Her., Old Boy (the og), Martyrs (the og), The Ring (the og), 1448, Halloween (also rob Zombies Halloween), Indiana Jones, The Sequels to og Star Wars, 2001: A Space Odyssey, Alien, (there's more i just cant think)

When I say "classic media" I mean, Kingdom Hearts, Legend of Zelda, Mario, Pokemon, Tamagotchi, Monster High, Bratz, all of the things that people loved about the y2k era, I simply could not access.

I am trying to reclaim that slowly. I am always willing to learn, if you have an interest in any of these things, I have open ears to say the least. (Infodump to me please)

I also was not exposed to much anime or manga at all through my life. I knew about it, I DO remember some of Code Lyoko Their foreheads were so big, but so was my love LOL

I am more familiar with video games post 2010. Even with games, I am very selective

I apologize if I don't get references to things, but I am always 100% willing to listen to any info dump or ramble or hyperfixation excitement.

I am extremely loyal and compassionate, empathy has been a curse and blessing, I wear my heart on my sleeve, that said: don't mistake this sensitivity and compassion for weakness. or as an unlimited resource.

*Unconditional love is not unconditional tolerance.*

This is for those I did really hurt: If you are someone from my past, and I mean pre-2020: I cannot make up for my mistakes, I know. "Sorry" does not make this better; but i do acknowledge those mistakes fully.

I deserve to sit with the guilt I curated (and I don't mean that to sound self-deprecating,) but more to explain that I understand the gravity. I won't excuse it with my mental health -- even for who I was or where I was at at the time, I was still abusive.

I will never deny you the right to say I was abusive and manipulative; because back then, I was.

Now, my crimes have been exaggerated heavily by this point, but that's not what i'm addressing. If I hurt you, I know it doesn't mean much, but I do want to apologize --but you do not owe me a thing. All I ask is that you know that I am aware of the pain, the fear, the trauma of having been in my life during that time. I'm not proud of it, I won't beg for forgiveness because it's not something I deserve. (again, not saying this to sound like a kicked puppy or smth)

Just know that, I'm doing the work. I got help, I am on meds, I am in treatment; still ongoing, i went to anger management, I am trying to be a better person.

Be angry, scream, yell, rage, you have every right to be angry with me even all of those years ago because yes I hurt you, no I don't like that fact, but I would not deny how you feel just because it pains me to know I hurt the people I loved the way I did.

All I ask is you don't drag this through decades. I know what I did (and didn't do because someone did make something up about some of the people I am addressing.) but the important part is that I know what I did and I am still actively taking steps to get better.

-rey
(11.13.2025)